It took me a very long time! Before I could finally realize what a true feeling being on your own is. I am not saying that anyone/everyone should be on their own. But! Because of me being different! It does in a way both pose and create a problem.
You see! When you see, think things in a way that others somehow cannot. And when they find out you are not like them! Well, It can and does have its advantages as well as disadvantage as well.
During my time I tried so hard to please others. And it just did not work. Too many years! Too much effort! I gave up! As I did. I began to learn something new. Freedom! Independence! On my own terms!
I could go anywhere (As long as my parents did not know where I went & did!), do what I wanted to do, see who I wanted to see and on. I occupied my time at home with listening to the radio. When I was younger! My musical tastes changed as I got older. At 12 I listened to classical, traditional jazz, Sinatra, Martin, Bennett. I had a multi-band radio and I would listen at night because the SW (Shortwave) broadcasters from on the other side of the world would begin their transmissions at that time, and collect what is called QSL cards each time I submitted a reception report. Always watched TV. Read Billboard magazine (When it was a $1.00 a copy!). Playboy (To the same as well!). Of course! Rock-n-roll.
The point I am trying to make is this!
Friends will come & go! We will have the good, bad, ugly friends too! But! You only have a one time shot at life and what it has. And as the song goes: “You cannot please everyone so you have to please yourself!”